Be vulnerable.

While at Mayoli farm I was reading a lot of Masanobu Fukuoka on natural farming and his philosophy on living as a natural being.

He talks of the nothingness, oneness, emptiness, the truth. All words that try to reach for this essence of truth that all is.
He refers to it using the Zen term 'Mu'

For about two weeks I was the only volunteer at the farm and was spending a lot of time on my own. While meditating I found it really helpful to remind myself to 'surrender to the nothingness '
This empty void that is the truth, that our minds try so hard to run away from. Our minds are always searching for more meaning, for a greater purpose, for more to do, more to become.

Sometimes I could surrender. And feel at peace in the emptiness.

But it also brought up inner tension built from a life of resisting that surrender. 
I found myself feeling lonely and vulnerable in this space.
Feeling lonely in the nothingness.
The ego craving for something more than the simple truth.

While throughout my life I've thought myself to be very non emotional I tried instead to stay with this pain. And to remain open and honest about these fears inside to myself and others.
I set an intention to leave my heart open and remain vulnerable.

We all are one, all are facing the same struggles, searching for meaning, for purpose. Causing ourselves and others so much suffering.
And the one causing all this suffering is not even us, its the ego, only to be observed and not to be taken personally.

Opening up this vulnerability brought out a lot of tears and a lot of compassion for each human living with this fear and uncertainty that stems from the ego.

I met back up with colleen at the end of this and she helped a lot in providing the open compassionate space to let me feel comfortable in my vulnerability. 

I made a commitment to remain vulnerable. In all situations to remain true. To dance when I feel like dancing, to sing when I feel like singing, and to cry when I feel like crying. Not being concerned with judgements from others, being vulnerable to whether they receive what I open up to give.

And when we make ourselves vulnerable it opens the space for the world around us to open up as well to receive and give back. It gives the courage for those layers and divisions to be stripped away that keep us from all sharing in being.

As we cycled away from kasar devi after being reunited all just was.
I was full of lightness, cycling downhill singing, making silly sounds, yelling Namaste to everyone I saw.

If I was approaching others I continued singing and being silly. Rather than holding back in fear of judgement. Remaining completely open and without fear. Sharing in this joy of being.

I felt this joy spread to others, the simplicity of interactions that occur without barriers and divisions.

I would like to encourage us all to be more vulnerable, to question these fears of judgement that stem from seeing us all as individuals and start to see that we are a reflection of the world around us. We are the world around us.
Cry, dance, sing, love, be silly.

Being is infectious.

LA DE DAH
TA THA TA

Andddd

Muah!!
Love
Xoxo ;)